bake found out that i am with donnie and shit hit the fan. i was planning on telling him last night after he got back from ohio, but on his way there he asked if there was anything going on with me and donnie. so i told him the truth. he wasnt mad, he was PISSED. he starting talking down to me and being really really mean. i tried to explain to him that i was going to tell him when he got back from ohio, but that didnt matter to him. he didt want to listen to what i was saying. then he called me and yelled at me. he then hung up on me. about 20 minutes later, he sent me a text. well i didnt feel my phone vibrate so i didnt know i had a new text. i felt the second one go off. he was mad that i didnt respond to the 1st text. once again, he didnt let me explain to him what happened. i didnt talk to him the rest of the night.
as i was just on the verge of sleep, my phone rang and it was a number that i didnt recognize. i answered it and the person on the other end refused to tell me who it was and they kept asking me questions about mine and donnies relationship. and they called me a whore. this whole situation made me cry. so i tried calling bake to see what the hell was going on because i knew that it was one of his friends. he answered and said that he didnt want to talk to me. i was ok with that. i sent him a text saying that i was not happy with the fact that he is having his freinds call and harass me. this was all at like midnightish. at 4:30, i got a text that said that he was drunk and didnt have any of his friends call me. so i sent him the phone number that called me and he replied by saying that it was scott that called me and that me must have had him call me. whatever.
i wake up this morning and bake had left me a comment on my myspace that said something along the lines of "i can see that i didnt even have a chance, donnie-have fun fucking my girlfriend. fuck both of you." i deleted it because i dont want anything to do with him anymore and hes just being really childish.
i think he sent a message to donnie too, i just wont know what it says untl i get off work at 8.
ugh. i just really needed to get all of that out.
- Mood:
pissed off
i really really dont want to be on campus today. i would much rather be sleeping. i work until 8 today. im working on friday too, so i am hoping that julie can pay me cash because i have no money and no gas to make it the rest of the week. i dont know what im gonna do if she cant pay me.
i might have to drop anatomy. if i fail these next 2 tests, i am pretty much not going to pass. and a withdrawl on a transcript looks a hell of a lot better than a failing grade. and that failing grade could keep me from getting into nursing school. i mean im still going to bust my ass to pass these tests, but if i bust my ass and still not pass, then there is nothing that i can do other than take it again next semester.
well its time for yoga. time to be squished in a tiny room with a bunch of sweaty people on the floor. sounds like a blast.
- Mood:
sleepy
im done.
and on the thought of money, i looked at my bill for school and it was like $3160 for this coming semester. my financial aid totals $4160. if i am correct, i get the difference. so like a week after school starts, i should be getting a check from IUPUI for about $1000. woooooooooooooo. im so excited. i literally almost cried when i saw that. ugh. that is such a huge burden lifted off of my back.
and i talked to a lady at hairtopia and they are gonna open up on the day of sams wedding. thats even more exciting.
im gonna go buy a few of my books tomorrow. then bake and i are going to crawfordsville to see one of his friends that is home for the week from basic, or something along the lines of that.
- Location:home
- Mood: sleepy
well on wednesday, julie had called me and told me that i didnt need to come in until 3:30 instead of 3 and stay until 7. and she had rambled off something about denny being there and she wanted to stick around incase he needed something done. i pulled up to her house at 3:30 and realized that haleys car was there. so she had lied to me about why i was coming in later. denny wasnt even there and haley wanted to stay until 3:30. all she had to do was tell me that haley was there. i thought that i was staying until 7, but i ended up staying until 7:30. she didnt even tell me. so im glad i didnt make any plans for the night.
then on thursday i was scheduled from 2:30 to 7:30. it was colder out so i couldnt take lauren outside to swing. well lauren was getting super fussy and frustrating to deal with, so juile decided to go watch denny play golf. this meaning i got sent home at 6. i was pissed. i was ready to quit on the spot.
friday morning my mom and i headed to my grandparents house. as soon as we got there i knew the weekend would be hell. first of all my grandma and i do NOT get along. at all. second, i was still pissed about work. we get there and my grandma had informed us that she gave the room with 2 beds to my aunt and uncle and there 14 year old son. then she looked over at me and mom and said, with a shitty attitude, "you and your mom have to share a bed" and me with an even shittier attitude said "well im glad i brought our air mattress." that really made her mad. we did not speak for the rest of the day. i dont understand why she insisted that my cousin gets a bed, and i had to sleep on an air mattress. i already have a really bad back, this just made it worse. that night we went to see the fireworks over the lake at my other aunt and uncles house. they were pretty.
the next day just went to hell. i got woke up at 6 a.m. because my aunt wanted to say bye to my mom and give her her birthday present. i was pissed. i fell back asleep till like 8ish and took a shower. i went upstairs to get breakfast because my mom told me that there were doughnuts. i get my food and my grandma looks at me and said "we have healthier stuff to eat. it doesnt look like you need anymore unhealty food in your diet.", meaning the weight that i have put on apparently is from eating a shit tone of unhealthy food. thats not the case at all. she can kiss my ass. and i wanted to tell her that. ugh. i just kept my mouth shut and ate my damn doughnut. at 1ish, we went back to my aunt and uncles house. when it came close to leave, my grandma and i got into an argument that resulted in a bunch of yelling. it was not a pretty sight. she didnt say anything to anybody until dinner. my grandpa and i were talking about what college was like for him and she just came in and butted into our conversation and interupted anytime my grandpa or i tried to talk. then she goton me about not using a bun when i was eating my bratworst. fuck her. i dont like buns with my food. i was so glad when we left because i didnt know how much more i could put up with that bitchy old woman. thankfully, my grandpa and i are on awsome terms. hes the one that helps me pay for school. my dad told me that my grandma has never worked a day in her life, yet she is collecting social security. that pissed me off even more.
sunday was fine. i just worked in the morning. it was boring.
monday i got up super early and got my tires rotated and oil changed. my dad is supposed to change my spark plugs on thursday. i only get 13 miles per gallon, so hopefully when im done tuning up my car, it will be better. i bought ghostface some cat nip...he hates it. it makes me sad. i was hoping he would be able to keep me entertained for hours, but i was wrong.
all i did today was work and lay around. ive been feeling really sick lately. like i have been getting dizzy and light headed and super nauseous. i should probably to go the doctor, but i dont really have the time. or the money.
sorry this is so long. im bored.
- Location:bakes
- Mood:
lazy
so i just bought 4 books today. im happy with myself. i cant wait to read them all. wooo. i also bought my mom a birthday present. she really wanted a pair of adidas sandals that are really really squishy and comfortable, but they didnt have any left, so i got her a pair of union bay ones that are just as squishy. i hope she likes them.
i was supposed to be at work at 3:00 but julie called me and asked if i could come in at 3:30 instead. its only 1/2 hour less. i guess im not that worried about it.
i have to go to my grandparents house this weekend. i dont think it will be to bad since we are leaving their house saturday night instead of sunday morning. they live on a lake so i hope its nice out so i can lay out and try to get some sun. that way i wont have to be around my grandma for that long. shes a bitch. we dont get along that well. my auny and uncle and their son might be there. that will be nice. i havent seen them in like 4 years. friday they are gonna have fireworks over the lake. its really pretty. then on saturday they have a thing called a floatilla. its a parade but with boats. the crazies of the lake decorate their boats and parade around the lake. hehe. its funny. i wish i didnt have to go by myself. bake has to go to crawfordsville. i would rather go with him. but o well.
will im gonna go read. ^_^
- Location:home
- Mood:
weird
i am so pissed off right now. i dont see how bake can so dumb. this weekend is dudefest at the emerson and he had to pick up a band from the airport and take them back this morning. well i walked into his apartment and on the floor is my blanket and pillow. so some random drunk sweaty smelly dude used my shit to sleep with. fuck that. i dont take his shit and let people he doesnt know use it. im reallly weird about people i dont know using my pillow. it creeps me out. the apartment was also fucking trashed. i used to try my best in keeping this place relatively neat. im over it. they are fucking pigs. whatever.
anyways. i had a wonderful night with my girls. i have pictures and will post them soon. im lazy. i hope we have more nights like that.
work is just plain pissing me off. i have no idea what day i have off this week. julie screwed up and thought she needed me this monday (mondays are my day off) so i told her i would work and have wednesday off instead. its acctually next monday that she needs me. so she said that i would just work the next 2 mondays and have the next 2 wednesdays off. then haley confused the hell out of me by saying that she was going to work tomorrow and that i am not gonna work tuesday morning, she is. i dont understand. julie wont get back into town until 8 or 9 tonight so i wont know my schedule until then. i would prefer not to work tomorrow. if i do, i will have worked 9 days in a row. it is totally taking its toll on my gas tank. i cant afford to drive there as much as i do. my car only gets fucking 13 miles to the gallon.
ok, well im either going to go get food or take a nap.
- Location:bakes
- Mood: cranky
i have the worst luck with phones. ever. i dont know why. the phone that i normally use sucks. it makes everything sound fuzzy and the front screen is busted beacuse i sat on it. so my dad let me borrow his backup phone. it has been working just fine up until a half an hour ago. my mom called me and i opened the phone to answer and the screen was black and i couldnt answer it. i didnt do anything. it just died. i dont understand. so now if my dads phone breaks, i have to give him mine since i was the last one to have his backup one. fuck. this is so frustrating. i dont want to buy another one since our contract is up in october. and because my phone has slight water damage, i have to spend $50 for a new one. i dont want to spend money on one, then have to buy another one in like 4 months. i dont have the money for that.
i have a migraine. im gonna take a nap.
- Location:home
- Mood: pissed off
work is really taking its toll on me. its not that lauren herself is, but the fact that i have to drive so far, be there for 4 or 5 hours and do the same exact thing everyday. i change her diaper, get a massive amount of drool on me (which is what most likely makes me get sick), and swing with her on a porch swing. we never do anything else. its getting old. i want like a week off. but its not going to happen. next week i only get monday off. eww. im gonna use so much gas.
speaking of gas, fuck the gas prices. there is no reason for it. yesterday i caught it just before it went to $4.20 over here by bakes. i only paid $3.98.
well i guess i will get a few days off work in july or august. im treating bake to cubs tickets. and i think we are taking the train. which is ok with me. its $36 a person for the train. so for the both of us it will be $72. we can afford that. when we get there we are staying with friends, one of which is a chef. so we get good food too. i cant wait.
if i get stuck at work again because of a fucking strom, im gonna go crazy. i work from 6-10:30ish tonight.
- Location:bakes
- Mood:
awake
i had to work today at 6. well i get there and i take lauren outside to swing. then we went back inside because it was starting to cool off a tad bit. well then the rain starts. julie and denny went to dinner and a movie and got back right before it got really bad. they wouldnt let me leave because they didnt want me to drive in the shitty weather. so i should have left at 10:15....but i didnt leave their house until 12. im so tired and i have to get up at 8 tomorrow.
life has been pretty good lately. my birthday is next friday. im going out to eat with bake that night then saturday night i am going out to eat with my mom. i really want to have a night out with sam and darci for my birthday too. i just need to figure out schedules and whatnot.
im taking ghostface to go get fixed on monday morning. i have to be there in between 6 and 8 in the morning then go pick him up between 6 and 6:45 that night. i dont want to take him but bake has to work and i have the day off. it needs to be done so im gonna have to get over it.
i am really sick of all the shit that they are doing to 465. im over it. i have to take it to work everyday and so far, i have almost had 4 accidents because people dont fucking pay attention. im over it. one day, a semi decided it was going to drive in the middle of 2 lanes and it almost ran into me. not fun.
ok, i really need to sleep.
- Location:home
- Mood: tired
well im pretty stoked about next school year. with my loan and scholarship and my grant, i have enough money to pay for the year and get money back, without having to pay anything out of pocket. i also applied for a scholarship through the church, so hopefully i can get some money with that too, ill find that out on the 1st. i will find out on tuesday if i will get the money back in time to buy my books. if i will, that will be a HUGE burden lifted off my shoulders.
work is going ok i guess. next week i start working 5 days a week and will be making more money. wooo. thats good because we are taking ghostface to the vet on the 2nd. im ready to get hm fixed. hes such a brat lately. he likes to knock over any cup that has some kind of liquid in it. if he doesnt like what is in there, he will just walk away, but if there is water or milk in the cup, he will drink as much as he can then stick is paw all the way in the cup then try to stick his face in there as well. its very frustrating. he just needs to calm the fuck down.
i really need to get my hair touched up. my roots are like an inch long and it bugs the hell out of me. i wont be able to get in to the hair place till thursday or friday. bummmmmer.
there is nothing better than a big cup of ice cold water. ^_^
- Location:home
- Mood: drained
not much has been going on in the life of me lately. i need to get my hairs did again. its annoying the crap out of me. well im gonna go take some medicine and crawl in bed.
- Location:home
- Mood: cranky
not much has been going on in the life of me. i guess im gonna be working alot in the next couple of months. thats good because i need to get my books, my car fixed, cubs tickets, pay my insurance and cell phone, and keep gas in my car. fun.
i have been watching house for the past couple of hours. its entertaining.
bake and i are doing ok, i just wish he didnt drink as much as he does.but o well, theres nothing that i can do about that. we are going to the indy 500. wooo. thats exciting. haha. the cat cut up his paw somehow and then kelley brought his dog over and he cut up his paw pretty bad too. there was bloos everywhere. kinda gross. we dont know what caused it. on monday i am going to try to figure out the culprit. just hope that i dont cut myself up too.
...im hungry...
- Location:home
- Mood: cranky
tomorrow is my dads graduation. that just sounds strange. he is having a party at 6. i need to go to metropolis at some point tomorrow. i also need to figure out the money situation and get my hair touched up again. having blonde hair with dark brown roots is annoying.
i guess on mothers day my brother and i are going to church with my mom. i couldnt even tell you the last time i went to church. i have always worked sunday morning since my sophomore year. then we are going to the retirement home where my grandma lives and eating lunch. they have really yummy gourmet food every year. i had the best stake i had ever eaten last year. then mom has to go to work. thats a bummer. i still need to get her a mothers day present. thats what i am going to do tomorrow.
i really need to make a doctor appointment. i have had the hardest time breathing for like the past week. my chest hurts and it feels uncomfortable. i also have a rash thingy on my arm that has grown in the past month. i dont think it is anything bad, i honestly think its just my exema that came back to haunt me.
i also need to go to the dentist. gross. i hate going there. i need to get a lot of work done on my 4 front teeth. i guess i have a cavity behind each tooth. i dont know, i just know it is giong to be an ungodly amount of pain. not looking forward to it.
im bored. and rambling. sorry.
- Location:home
- Mood:
uncomfortable
so i have 2 more days left of work with julie mom. thank god. and i have 2 days of work till i get a day off. actually i get 3 days off. woooo. thats what i need.
well i have 15 minutes till i have to leave for work....and im not ready.....
- Location:home
- Mood: cranky
i havent updated in a while. ive been busy with work and what not. julie and denny went to washington dc so julies parents are at the house with lauren until thursday. i know that her mom means well, she just doesnt let me do my job. she comes in the room like every 30 minutes and messes with lauren and makes her mad and i have to deal with it. its really frustrating. i just want to tell her to leave her the hell alone. i dont know if i can handle being around her for another 3 days. i feel like she is in denial about lauren being developmentally disabled. she seems to think that lauren is going to get better and be a normal person. that isnt going to happen. its really frustrating.
on another note, i got all A's this semester. thats pretty exciting. only 2 grades have been turned in so far and those 2 A's brought my GPA up to a 3.7 from a 3.64. i busted my ass this semester and it has really paid off. next semester...no wait, next year is going to be really hard. its when i start taking all the classes needed to get into the school of nursing. im taking anatomy and finite. 2 really really hard classes. im not excited.
i need to take a shower.....
- Location:bakes
- Mood:
blah
overall i guess today was good. i went to victory field and put a bunch of fake tattoos on little kids. that was fun. then i was going to go sell my books back, but senate ave was closed, so i parked on campus and was gonna walk to the textbook alternative. well i got into my trunk and got all of my books out and had left my damn keys in the trunk. i felt like a dumbass. so i had to call my dad to have him pretty much break into my house and get the other set of keys. i went to the textbook alternative and got a whole $39 for two books that i paid a total of $130 for both of them. i was kind of pissed. then i went to the other bookstore to sell my econ book back that i used last semester, and they told me that iupui doesnt use that edition anymore. so i got no money from that at all. now im stuck with an econ book that i dont want. i got to bakes and we made dinner then went to go see forgetting sara marshall. it was pretty funny. i liked it alot. then we came back to the apartment and i tried to study for my math final, but i just wasnt in the zone. im just gonna try and hope i do ok.
whos bright idea was it to schedule a math final at 8 in the morning. that is the worst idea i have ever seen. i have to get up at 6. i cant even tell you the last i got up at 6. im lazy.
i also got an e-mail from cornerstone today saying that my car insurance card has expired, so i have to take time out of my day tomorrow to drive there and have them make copies of the card, when as far as i know, my mom had faxed them the card and they said they had recieved it. i dont know. its kind of dumb.
ok well i really need to go to bed.
- Location:bakes
- Mood: tired
i went to work today and found out that i will be working from saturday to thursday. fun. i guess. i have tomorrow off but i have to go to victory field to finish up my community service hours then going to sell my books back so i can get monies. then on thursday i have to work and me and mom are leaving for fort wayne for the vera bradley outlet sale thing and we are coming back on friday. im gonna be ready for long break after that week. it wouldnt be that bad, but julies mom is a huge worry wart and she doesnt really let me do my job. so thats kind of sucky. o well. its money.
i have a final on thursday. its my only one that i have this semester. but its math and thats dumb. i hate math. i really need to start studying. i have started it a little bit, but not enough to be ready for the final.
i need to get some sleep. i have been so tired lately. its not fun.
- Location:home
- Mood: sleepy
there was a spider on my ceiling.....and i had to get my mom up out of bed to kill it because i am that scared of spiders.
so bake and i have been together for a year and a half. it seems like so much longer than that. we went to the olive garden for dinner. it was yummy.
then me and my mom went to kohls and i spent too much money. but i got a pair of shorts, some undies, and some adidas sandels that are really really comfy.
i have to work the rest of the weekend. my last day of class was thursday. then i have a final this thursday. im ready to get this final over with. ive done really well so far this semester. as far as i know i have a 94% in psych, 98% in english, and i think a 95% in my social work class. it would be pretty fucking rad if i could keep an A in math too. then i would be able to make the deans list again. that would be fun.
- Location:home
- Mood: drained
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